Monday, October 19, 2009

The 100th Day..............

The sky was blue, the sun was laughing loudly, the beam was strong, very strong that almost Jerry's body was to have another sun-burn.
Jerry was running around, the whole-day in his hometown, paying bills, going the banks, meeting insurance agents, cleaning the house. And finally, when it had fully settled, he went back to his home, or the place used to be a 'home' for him, resting on the big sofa which used to be the place he likes to sit watching TVB's dramas and other programs, the place where he used to read his Sunday newspaper with a glass of lemon tea.
Suddenly, a feeling of sadness comes to him. He looked around the house, the living hall, and his eyes were concentrating to a particular spot in the house, yes, the dining table and a chair.
And out of sudden, tears kept on flowing, wetting his cheek, his chin, then it flowed, to his neck. And suddenly, he was bursting, crying so hard, from his heart, his heart that has been hurt for the last 3-4 months. He was feeling so lost at that time, and feeling the loss too. Suddenly, the sky turned very dark, and lighting started to strike, and you can hear thunder outside. It was sunny awhile ago. Was this a coincident? or was this the tropical weather? He could not answer during that time on this sudden change. And it rained, very heavily, and the air was cool inside the house. And Jerry, for the first time felt very comfortable, at ease. Perhaps that was the weather he likes, perhaps the rain was telling him some hidden messages (like a messenger), or perhaps, after the emotional bursting, he felt relieved. Again, nobody can answer that, except Jerry.
In the airport and later in the plane, flying back to his current base, he was sleeping very well and comfortable, for the first time, after several months.

Happy 100th day, Dad. May you follow the Nirvana path.
Amitabha


Choong, Beijing

1 comment:

Devil said...

It's normal and healthy to burst occasionally , rather than suffering from any terrible break-down when you explode like a pressure cooker because you keep eveything inside.

The weather wasn't a coincident....
someone was watching over you and trying to relieve you from the sadness, and you should clearly knew who...